Triggering

 My ex-mother-in-law took her last breath in Norway less than 72 hours ago.

I know how that feels for Arild as I've lost my father years before. Arild wants me to accompany him to Norway for funeral so here we go, we're heading Norway today.

Honestly, I haven't totally recoverd from the cold I got in Taiwan, and then Mary's death has triggered something in me. I am just not well. I think a lot, doubt a lot, lots of  moments I feel I am going crazy.......
I still don't have any proof. I still haven't any clarity in reality.

Am I crazy or am I crazy?

God help me. If I am not that bad a person.